What do you think of my first chapter of my book?

It's a bit emo and self-pitying for my taste, and you have some obvious grammatical issues, but other than that I actually like your style, and I realize the negativity is your intended effect. So I would tell you to definitely keep writing. On another note, based off your writing I think you should read Albert Camus' novel The Stranger. I think you would like it, and it would be a great example for you in learning to deliver that same apathy and recognition of the world's indifference toward human existence, without the self-pitying tone you have now. Unless of course you meant to have that tone. Lol I hope this helps and good luck with your writing!